If You Only Knew

Edit! I had to revisit this. My original post had some serious gaps in it. My brain was running and my fingers and phone weren’t. It’s still a tough one for me to tie up neatly, so thank you for struggling to read the first draft. Heck, you will struggle with this one too!! I …

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I’ve spent 34 birthdays with Mike and I can’t believe I have been so blessed. Time has robbed me of the ability to recall each one, and honestly there were times I didn’t appreciate it anyway. I didn’t find the joy in the years we spent because I was too busy raising kids, working, surviving …

New Year’s Eve 2023

I don’t recall the last time that Mike and I went somewhere for New Years. Oh wait, 3 years ago we went to the Wolf Hotel, in Ellinwood late after we closed the door at work and arrived at 10 pm or so. It was nice. But typically we go home and crash. Last night …

Mr Rhythm

We had a stable not far off I-70. It was my Grandparents pride and joy and one which they shared with many people over the years. Back in the day, before fancy Bloomer trailers, horses were not transported in luxury comfort!! Some got loaded on cattle pots, some in weird two horse bumper pull trailers, …

Do The Work….Feel The Sadness….Get The Peace

I have been away....it's ok..... I am back.....it's ok..... I may go away again....it's ok....... While she used to escape into the fog, I can see her now.....she's going to be ok..... We all have our stuff. We have hang ups and isms that make this life difficult, at times, to traverse. We have a …

Christmas time is here

When I think about Christmas time, I think about the Peanuts Gang standing around the tree singing Vince Guaraldi's "Christmas Time is Here". It makes me feel very nostalgic. As a little girl I loved sitting in my jammies, with wet hair down my back from my bath, watching a little tv with rabbit ears, …

tHANKS-GIVING

It's Thanksgiving week. Yep, another Thanksgiving will come and go and I will try to get excited about all of the gratitude that I feel! I gotta admit that the last several months I have not "felt" the gratitude that I really feel. Does that make any sense? I mean that there are a lot …

This is Hard For Me

What you will find below I started over 2 weeks ago. I am still struggling to find my words, but what happened to me today absolutely shattered me and has made my internal rage fire out of control. Most people are unaware that Mike has had some recent health issues and out of respect for …

No More MLM Pills

Topics this week have been tough for me to nail down. There are so many options; COVID-19, mask wearing, political opinions, missing children, so much news, both local and national. For instance, are the rumors true that the City of Salina is really broke?? I hear rumor after rumor with little to no information to …

Tootsie

"Toot toot Tootsie, good-bye! Toot toot Tootsie, don't cry!"....I think I was 7, but then again, everything happened at 7....pretty sure that's when I walked into Gram's house and I heard the console stereo belting out Al Jolson singing Toot Toot Tootsie! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fak30w6cUFY The video is kind of amusing! I thought that was the funniest …

No Merry Christmas Letter….but Merry Christmas!

Like many of you, part of my Christmas tradition was to create and send the standard Christmas photo card or letter to all of my friends and family but last year was different and this year isn't looking any more promising. The sad truth is that the older I get, the more I realize that …

Grumpy … … …

I'm feeling like I don't want to roll in this world today....or possibly tomorrow and maybe even the next day!! I go through stages where the stimulation of the outside world makes my insides shake like I am standing on the edge of Niagara Falls feeling the earth rumble! I'm there! I wouldn't say it's …

THAT’S ALL FOR TODAY!!

OK!! Kids listen!! This is really how life works! Today, I am the fireman. I have been putting out the fires at work, after a long/short night letting my daughter catch up on some sleep, while I stayed up with my brand new granddaughter, Allie Ann! I got home at almost 2 am and finally …

Worrying …. It Doesn’t Change A Thing!

The wind is blowing from the southwest this morning and the Fall weather feels more like Winter is right behind. Normally, Mike is the one who gets up and goes out to the garage to feed the dogs, but this week he is gone and I have been up in the dark to feed that …

Not Sure What to Call This One….

This has been a summer like no other. I have worked more this year than I ever thought my body could possibly take. I sleep away the weekends because I can't move and I have missed more sunny days because of sleeping the weekend away than I care to remember. I am thankful for the …

🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪

I've been thinking a lot lately about my love of the English language and how when I was a kid I would read a Thesaurus just for fun. Somehow in our attempt to "simplify" everything we have created an entire language with emojis and I doubt anyone under the age of 20 knows what a …

Today

2019.. update before I repost. My lofty goal is the same on this 5th year of Dad's earthly exit... I have been sick in bed for 6 days now....it makes the reality worse because he was my first call when I got sick. Here's to some zinc, vitamin C, and hot tea. I miss you …

IT’S BELTANE!!! IT’S MAY DAY!!

Originally posted May 1, 2018. Reposting When I was a little girl I looked forward to the first of May with more happiness and anticipation than I did Christmas!!  It was my chance to sneak in and surprise those I loved and it was the best feeling of the entire year!! If it happened to …

I Believe in….You

I get distracted. Not just by squirrels, but by daily fires and life. I write when I have a thought. I’m laughing writing that, and I think that I must only “think” something that hits me about once a week!! No wonder it takes me so long between stories. My apologies to my newest granddaughter, …

Tell Me, Please!

Tell me where it hits you? Tell me what makes you feel like the wind blows through you? Tell me what sparks your desire to be the greatest part of your authentic self? Tell me how other’s stories cause you to examine your dark places? Tell me what makes you feel the connection to the …

Auld Lang Syne

It’s here again. Another year is almost in the books and I find myself reminiscent in my every thought. So much has happened this year and so much I won’t be able to discuss until later. But let’s just preface this with “some people are not who they appear to be. Evil is real and …

Joints are Tight

What does healing mean to you? Do you think of a physical healing or a spiritual healing or a mental healing? When you close your eyes, what do you see? My entire writing experience has been laden with honest conversations about spiritual issues, mental health, physical health and the effects of trauma on all of …

Tears for my Soul

I’ve been super emotional lately. But before I start, know that I am typing this on my phone at 3:32 am. Typos are gonna happen and I probably won’t fix them!! I had knee reconstruction and replacement on June 21st. No one warned me that knees are a whole different animal than hips!! It’s been …

No Room for Judgement Here

Sometimes I think I have forgotten my purpose but then I’m reminded to refresh myself and get busy. Lately, I have neglected to fill my spirit with things I love. I have been trying to reignite my big internal flame for years and I may be seeing a spark! Perhaps I have mentioned before that …

Getting The Message

Writing has always been an outlet for me. I am finding it to be more difficult than when I began my blog some 100 plus posts ago. Maybe it’s because my self journey has opened so many memories and doors that I struggle to share them. Maybe I am just so worn out with the …